It is still up to now, I regret how numb and foolish am I not to notice your efforts. Way back then I'm just an innocent girl. I don't know how to take actions with your awkward glimpse. But for no reason I just liked it to be awkward then. And this is what I've got.. still get hurt and don't know how to forget all the foolishness I've made. Seeing you now, you're greatly good. Heard from our friends you like someone now. Of course I need to pretend that I am over. My smile, laugh and jolly actions, they are all bogus. You don't know how it is still painful for me. Hahaha! Why do you need to know? You're happy now, I don't want to meddle anymore. All in all it was my own mistake. It was me who turned you down. Me who didn't care about your feelings before, and now you're doing it to me. It is so funny to read that I am being like this. Why? Because there was never an us. We never had this mutual understanding. Yet we both liked each other, at a wrong time. You have this young lady who likes you too till now. She was your high school love. I know you like her. You just don't admit it to yourself. Because when you two were in high school it didn't worked out. You left her hanging. You are so good at this. Leaving us hanging with our feelings. But in the first place it was my choice to fall for you or not. But yes I did. Remember my birthday? You did come, but left early. After I got home and celebrated my birthday. I found myself so hurt and crying. How could you just do that to me? Since then, I promise not to cry over you. Even though it still hurts I will never ever lose my tears for you.
